I'm mad at myself for not trusting your better judgement..
I fell in love with you .. with all your amazing qualities
and the flaws that make you human .. with the fact that you knew better than me
and the knowledge that your strength can protect me..
I am mad at myself for caring in a way that hurts us both
for being selfish beyond my control and for underestimating your decision
even when I feel in my core is not the right one.. is Yours
I am mad for being overemotional
for being immature at times and for picking on stuff I should just let go of
I am mad at you for not listening ..
for not remembering..
for not considering..
I am sad for letting it all affect me and angry because I don't see the remedy
I am pissed.. upset.. mad.. taken aback.. desperate.. and all the words you might want to call it..
All the feelings you might want to think about ..
And suddenly I am speechless .. Wordless .. Feelingless..
Just Hurt ..